28 December 2014

My testimony

I sit here tonight reflecting on what I learned today at church. 
I think about the birth we celebrated this past week at Christmas-time. 
I think of my perfect Father in heaven. 
I think of His pure Son, who demonstrated so clearly and perfectly what charity is.
I think of the series of events that have taken place in my life.
I think of the changes that I have made.

I think back to Kenna as a little girl.
I know what she dreamed of and hoped for.

I think back to Kenna in her early teenage years.
Struggling to figure out who she was and where she fit in.

I think back to Kenna graduating high school.
Starting a million things and having no idea which way to go.

I think of Kenna at all stages of life, 
and then I think of where I am now.

The one common factor in my life throughout all stages,
was that my Father in heaven and Savior were always beside me.

Through the ups and downs and in-betweens,
I had Two Best Friends.

Those Best Friends always helped me back up.
They gave me hope when I had none.
They were my light when I had nowhere to go.

And one day, when I die,
and I leave this mortal life,
one common factor of my life
will always remain the same.


I know that the gospel of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints is true. I don't know a whole lot of things in life, but I know that. I know that I am loved. I know that I am truly cherished, truly cared for, and truly wanted. I know that I am worth it. I know that The Book of Mormon is the word of God. I am reassured of that each and every time I open that book. I know that the men who lead this church are indeed called by God. I know that they want our happiness. I know that they try their very best. And I know that their counsel is inspired. I know the purpose of life. I know why I was created. I know where I came from and where I am and where I'm trying to go. I know that there is so much more beyond this life. I know that eternity is as real as the snow that falls. I know that the Holy Ghost is my Friend, my Comforter, and my Hope. I know that if I remain worthy, the Holy Ghost will guide me and accompany me throughout my mortal journey. I know that I have an Eternal Father in heaven who is at the head of my life. He is my Master and my Friend. I know He wants only my happiness and success. I know I have a Savior, who gives me a chance to get it right each and every day. I know He is on my side. I know that the principles and doctrines of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints are true, and accurate, and complete. I know that all will be well if we heed God's word and live with our eyes single to His Glory. I am grateful for these things. The gratitude I feel encompasses my life every day.

I know these things to be true, with all of my heart and my mind and my soul.

In the name of Jesus Christ, 

26 December 2014

Saying Goodbye To What Life Once Was

It is a very rare occasion if I ever think about my divorce, and never do I actually think about my life before the divorce. The past few years of my life, this blog has been such an incredible outlet for me. It is how I coped, and it is how I learned. It is how I progressed, and it is how I shared my testimony. This blog has been a great blessing in my life, and because of it I have made friends that I know I will keep forever.

However this blog, much like my life now, has nothing to do with divorce.

To be honest, I constantly forget I got divorced. People will still stop and ask me, "are you the divorced girl with the blog?..." and I actually have to remember that, oh hey, that's me! My divorce is such a foreign part of my life now. I hardly remember anything about my life at that time. I truly feel like I was never married, and it's such a beautiful thing to feel that way!

I have been SO blessed the past few years. I have had wonderful experiences that I will cherish for a lifetime. And yes, I'll always keep a copy of the newspaper I was in, because that's something I'll always be proud of. However me - and my life - has simply just moved on.

I will always blog. 
I have a love for sharing the gospel through social-media. 
But now I'm just Kenna. 
Not, Kenna from I Left My Heart In New Zealand. 
Not Kenna the divorced blogger.
Just Kenna.
Kenna with the incredibly perfect fiancé.
Kenna with the brightest future ahead of me.
Just me. 
Just me and my life now.

I got a new Instagram a while back, and while I was at it I changed the name of my blog. My divorce doesn't define me... who I became through my divorce is what defines me. I am so grateful for what I went through, and I always will be. It has only led to extraordinary things in my life, and for that I am eternally indebted to my Father in heaven and Savior.

It is now December of 2014. Another year is ending and another year is just beginning. And with that in mind, I felt like it was an appropriate time to write this post. 

Here is to my new and beautiful life.

18 December 2014

The Best Night Of My life

Last night I went to sit on Santa's lap.
As-per-usual, he asked me what I wanted for Christmas this year.
I told him I couldn't think of anything.
I told him I had everything I possibly wanted.
And then he said, "well how about a surprise!?"

I told Old Saint Nick that - of course -  I loved surprises,
and before I knew it this perfect man
was on one knee asking me to marry him.

Boy, did Santa outdo himself this year.

I couldn't have hand-picked a more perfect or more romantic proposal.
I couldn't have hand-picked a more fitted soul-mate for me for eternity.
I couldn't have hand-picked a more perfect recipe for a more perfect life.

Which is why I know Someone much greater was at the head of this plan.

The past ten months of my life have been too good to be true.
My relationship with Joseph has fallen perfectly into place,
each puzzle piece connecting better than the one before it.
I have never felt more confident, more content,
or more sure of something in my entire life,
and I truly thought my heart couldn't possibly feel
more at peace than it has felt the last ten months.

Last night, however, that theory was proven wrong.

I am beyond blessed to have Joseph Patten Orgill in my life. I am beyond honored to be his fiance. I am so humbled to have been given someone as extraordinary and as special as him.

And on January 23rd, 2015 he will be my husband.
I will have him for time and all eternity.

And I never thought eternity could possibly look this good.

If you would like an invitation,
please give us your address:

13 December 2014

Words to the wise:

Brené Brown is one of my favorite human beings in the world. I think she's brilliant.
She posted this on Facebook tonight, and now I think she's even more brilliant.
But you know what would be most brilliant?
If this picture was the homepage of Instagram and Blogger.
Just saying.

01 December 2014

For your viewing pleasure:

Just because my boyfriend has the coolest family ever.

27 November 2014

"Gratitude is the very essence of worship." -President Gordon B. Hinckley

As I sat at my computer today, I pulled up the blog post that I wrote last Thanksgiving. My, oh my, how things have changed. 

While I am still dearly grateful for the things I was grateful for last year, so many more things have been introduced into my life.

I, above all, am unbelievably grateful for my Father in heaven. I am astonished by His goodness and His love and the constant care that He extends to me. I am so grateful to have an eternal Father, who knows my past, knows my present, and knows my future. I am so incredibly grateful that He holds my life in His hands, because His plans for my life have unfolded into something more beautiful than I ever could have ever imagined.

I am grateful for my perfect Friend and Savior, Jesus Christ. I am grateful that He atoned for me. I am grateful that I will once again, have the chance to live with Him and our Father. I am grateful for His purity and His example. I am grateful for His mercy, His love, and His flawless perfection. Every day I am humbled because every day I witness something that is only possible because of His atoning sacrifice.

I am grateful for all of the beautiful things the gospel of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints provide. I am grateful for the ability to attend the temple, and to dwell in the Home of my Heavenly Father and Savior. I am grateful for the weekly meeting I am able to attend, where I gather with saints and friends and learn more about this perfect gospel that I am so proud to be a part of. I am grateful that I am able to take the Sacrament in that weekly meeting, and I am so grateful for the sweet spirit I feel every time that I do. I am grateful for the Book of Mormon. I am grateful for the counsel I am able to receive every time I open that precious book. I am so grateful for prayer. I am so grateful that I can communicate with my Heavenly Father whenever I need to, and I can't possibly put into words how grateful I am to know that He will always, always be there.

I am grateful for the people my Father in heaven has put into my life. I am grateful for my family, and my dearest loved ones and friends. I am grateful for what each relationship in my life has given me. These relationships have given me so much, and I will forever be so grateful. It's an unbelievable thing to have people in your life who you know will never leave you, and above all never stop loving you.

I live comfortably in a beautiful place. I never wonder where I will find my next meal. I have a roof over my head and a place to lay my head. I have found security and shelter when so many others have not, and I have found refuge spiritually and emotionally from every storm I have encountered.

My Father in heaven and His perfect Son are so good to me. They are my reason to live, and I live the way I do because I have hope and faith that I will once again, dwell in their presence and be with them one day.

Happy Thanksgiving to all of you!
May you be aware of all your blessings,
and count them often today.

28 October 2014

From Whom All Blessings Flow

I seriously have a river of never-ending love for this man. A year after being diagnosed with leukemia, Elder Maxwell says humbly how unworthy he feels of his blessings. He ends his (always) perfect 7-minute sermon by saying, "Among His many roles I express my particular and personal gratitude today for the recent ways in which He has been the precious Comforter, including in the mid-night moments." 

How many mid-night moments my Savior has rescued me from.

And said by such a wonderful disciple of Christ.

21 October 2014

God Knows What He Is Doing

The other night I started to cry.
I started to cry because I was so grateful.
I started to cry because I was so happy.
I started to cry because it was so easy to breathe.

My soul was at peace.

All I know, is that our Heavenly Father can turn something dark into nothing but light. He can and He will make up the difference, one hundred times over again.

And He did.
And He has.
And that is why I cry.

20 October 2014

Women of Faith film

First published article on LDS.net found here.

07 October 2014

Life, as of late.

It's real good.