28 September 2014

When Life Beats You Down

The past two weeks of my life have been emotionally/physically/mentally&spiritually draining. Like in every way. Has life ever felt like a chore? It's just like somehow, temporarily, become this nasty cycle of feeling like you could be doing more, and just wanting so desperately to feel like you're not doing all that bad? Like things aren't so bad?

Well... I have experienced that lately.

At the beginning of this week I booked a 3 day trip to Las Vegas, and drove by me and my lonesome to the city of sin, (except not really, because it was northern Las Vegas). I turned off my phone, drove to the nearest Deseret Book, bought a book that felt familiar to home, and laid out in the sun and read.

I cried. I prayed. I read my scriptures. I ate bananas and granola bars in my hotel room, and I just thought. I thought about life. I thought about the purpose of all of it. I thought about the bigger picture... I tried to remember the bigger picture. I also found a lot of pictures that made me feel better... kind of. 

But then, what really made me feel better, was this quote by President Gordon B. Hinckley:

“Anyone who imagines that bliss is normal is going to waste a lot of time running around shouting that he’s been robbed. The fact is that most putts don’t drop, most beef is tough, most children grow up to just be people, most successful marriages require a high degree of mutual toleration, most jobs are more often dull than otherwise. Life is like an old time rail journey…delays…sidetracks, smoke, dust, cinders and jolts, interspersed only occasionally by beautiful vistas and thrilling burst of speed. The trick is to thank the Lord for letting you have the ride.”

... and you know what? I think he may have just had it right!

And you know what else? That's okay.

I know that mortality entails these times. I know that a part of our plan (maybe a larger part than we would like) is going to be difficult. And it's going to be hard. And it won't be fair and people won't always do the right thing and we won't always respond the right way and we will just feel crummy. Because sometimes life does that. But at the end of the day, we will always have the one, most perfect, most unchanging gift we could be given... 

And that my friends?
Well that...
That makes me feel like this:

07 September 2014

Keeping The Faith In An Uncertain World

I have a friend who shared with me an experience that she had a few years ago. She told me that there was a point in her life when she and her husband unexpectedly felt very strongly to pack up their bags and move to Las Vegas. They had no family there - no job opportunities there - and seemingly no purpose there. However, she and her husband listened to the spirit, her husband quit his job, and they left their three grown children and found a house in Las Vegas.Not even a month later my friend and her husband received another prompting - just as strong as the first - to move back to Orem, Utah. They were barely getting settled when they knew they needed to return home. Completely unaware of why this was happening, she and her husband once again packed their bags and returned to Utah.

"To this day my husband and I have no idea why that happened," she told me, "but we knew what we felt was real and we obeyed." Nothing significant happened within the span of those few months. Nothing life-changing occurred. In fact - other than their surroundings - their life remained entirely the same. 

As years have passed and I've gained experience, I now know there will be times in life where this will happen. We will feel things we simply don't understand, we will be given promptings that seem to make no sense, and life will unfold a series of events that we and our mortal minds cannot comprehend. Sure, some of these "promptings" may be slightly fabricated and result from a lack of spiritual maturity, but there will be times when these unknown promptings are indeed from a loving Heavenly Father, and He certainly intends us to listen.

I have been given my fair share of these experiences in life, and I've been greatly blessed to be able to look back at some of these times, and with clarity now - see what those promptings were leading to back then. There are some experiences I don't think I will ever understand in this life, and some I know I very well could have fabricated, but what I do know is that every one of these experiences has led me to rely on my Heavenly Father and on the Holy Ghost. It has led me to walk towards my Savior in the dark. It has tested my spiritual understanding and has brought me to a place where I am more worthy to receive promptings - because I act on the ones that I receive.

I know that our Heavenly Father and Savior want only the best for us. I know They want us to be happy, and I know They want us to return home to Them one day. I am so grateful for that knowledge, and I am so grateful for the uncertainty found along the way in this life. 

I am especially grateful for the times when faith is required.

And I am immensely grateful for the Sources where that faith is found.

02 September 2014

Herman's Hermits!

As my dad would say, "Us old folks still know how to have a good time!"
Touche Dad.

^^^ (for your own perosonal enjoyment) ^^^

01 September 2014

Beat Body Bullying: Week #1

September 1st:
Put away the scale.

A scale in society has become as important as a resume. 
In fact, it almost acts as a resume. 
In society a scale provides one's "accomplishments."
And to some - what it says on the scale is more important than a resume.

Week #1 Lesson To Be Learned is to come to this understanding:

And that's perfectly okay.