28 December 2015

“To be fully seen by somebody, then, and be loved anyhow - this is a human offering that can border on miraculous.” - Elizabeth Gilbert

The other day I overheard a conversation while waiting in line at the store. There were two women, both probably in their late twenties. One of them was married and the other one clearly was not. I didn't catch the whole conversation, but I did hear the un-married one say, "Are you serious? That's so weird! I honestly thought problems went away once you got married!"


Her friend lovingly laughed,
and I couldn't help but laugh too.

Marriage is incredible. The efforts that are made within a marriage bring the most special rewards and carry with it the most magical and meaningful moments... But, it is simply silly to not admit that being a loving and active and committed partner within a marriage isn't simply a natural-occurring unchangeable choice we were born with, permanently etched inside of us. Being a loving and active and committed partner within a marriage is an honest-to-goodness conscious decision we choose to make every day. It is a conscious decision to choose someone, day in and day out, and it is choosing them and all that they can (and sometimes, can not) bring into your relationship.

There have been many wonderful moments within my marriage, but one that particularly stood out to me was an experience I had the other day. It was a rough day, and for whatever reason my anxiety was through the roof. If there was a momentary picture to perfectly describe my life it would have been this:

I was being as dramatic as humanly possible, and as I was attempting to express my emotions to my husband, I quite literally floundered my body off the couch while I was basically wailing. 

It was horrifying. 

I sobbed and it was neither quiet nor delicate. It was loud. My eyes were swollen from the constant crying, my cheeks were perfectly black from my mascara, and my breathing sounded like muffled heaving in the most awkward and uncomfortable way.

Needless to say it wasn't my finest moment.

My husband, without hesitation, swooped my flailing body into his arms and held me like a helpless little child. I wish I could say these words were exaggerated in an effort to disguise the actual hideousness of the situation but alas,
I cannot.

As my husband comforted me, I looked at him and for a moment I just wondered, how in the actual heck does this man still look at me the way today, in my utter and chaotic mess, the way that he did the day of our wedding?

And you know what conclusion I came to?

He chooses to.

Every day he chooses to love me.

He chooses to love me despite my many shortcomings and failings.

HE chooses ME.

And I choose him.

So! To that sweet, sweet girl I overheard at the store, who genuinely believes marriage fixes all problems in life - I applaud you for your optimism. And believe it or not, I think you are in for something even better than a problem-free life.

In fact, if you're lucky enough, there will be tough times. If you're lucky enough, there will be disagreements along the way. And if you're exceptionally lucky, you will have horrid experiences like the one I had. And you will have a husband, who holds you and chooses you despite the many reasons he might have not to. And if you're smart enough to realize what you have?

You will choose him too.

Every day.
Despite the reasons you have not to.

And if you let it, this choice will complete your life in a way that nothing else can.

If you let it, an outwardly "imperfect marriage" can exceed what any "problem-free marriage" could have given you... ten-fold.

And I promise you, that whatever "ugly" moments you encounter, can truly become the most beautiful and cherished moments within your marriage...

within your life.

06 December 2015

Merry Christmas from the Orgill's!

Now that I am officially a member of the Orgill family clan, I am privileged to join in with them on their Christmas dance tradition! In a few days our video got over two million views... 25,000+ shares, and our family picture is now used as an advertisement for a clothing company in New York City that sells Christmas sweaters. Also, KSL has written an article and I'd like to give a personal shout out to Alex from Target who posted our video and captioned, #FAMILYGOALS

Family of 8 siblings performs annual Christmas Dance music video. #familygoals #santaclauseYoutube version:...
Posted by Ammon Orgill on Tuesday, December 1, 2015

Needless to say the Orgill fam feels pretty cool this year. 

Merry Christmas, from us to you!

Our video from last year: 

More articles found here:

Daily Mail

K945 FM 

06 November 2015

Church Updates Policies On Families In Same-Sex Marriages

"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, 
neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord... 
For as the heavens are higher than the earth, 
so are my ways higher than your ways, 
and my thoughts than your thoughts." -Isaiah 55:8-9

"We openly acknowledge that in nearly 200 years of Church history—
along with an uninterrupted line of inspired, honorable, and divine events—
there have been some things said and done that could cause people to question. 
Sometimes questions arise because we simply don’t have all the information 
and we just need a bit more patience. When the entire truth is eventually known, 
things that didn’t make sense to us before will be resolved to our satisfaction. 
A question that creates doubt in some can, 
after careful investigation, build faith in others." 
-President Uchtdorf 

And finally: 
"Doubt your doubts before you doubt your faith." 
-President Uchtdorf

04 October 2015

LDS General Conference Quotes Sunday Afternoon Session October 2015

I know that The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints is the one and only true church. I know that it is indeed, the church of our perfect and loving Savior. I know that the brethren who speak at conference are truly men called of God, and they are qualified and pre-ordained to give us the correct counsel we need to hear. I am grateful for a loving Father in heaven, Who has blessed me in countless ways. I know that my Father in heaven blessed me with a sweet eternal companion who was perfect for me. I am grateful to know I can be with him and my family for all eternity. I am so blessed in each and all of my life circumstances, and I know He is responsible for all of it. I am infinitely grateful for my Heavenly Father's Son, Who lived His life and spent every second of it glorifying His Father in heaven. Jesus Christ is our ultimate Example, our most noble Friend, and our omnipotent, almighty Redeemer. These things I know, in and through the name of Jesus Christ, amen.

LDS General Conference Quotes Sunday Morning Session October 2015

Watching our sweet, beloved Prophet speak this morning touched me to the very core. Towards the end of his talk, he became weak, and fragile, and his age began manifesting in the way he spoke. The only thing our Prophet did was continue to bear his testimony with conviction, and, stand tall in the work of the gospel of Jesus Christ. I picture all of the apostles of the Lord that way, preaching the words of the gospel until their last breath. How grateful we should be for such a Prophet, and now more than ever, we need to cherish the sweet words from this man of God. 

11 September 2015

Suicide Prevention Day

Yesterday was Suicide Awareness Day, and for each person who struggles with depression or knows someone who does... yesterday probably felt a little different than most days. 

It could have happened to a loved one, or it could have happened to someone you once kind-of knew. Or, depending on the severity of your depression, perhaps your experience with suicide has been a struggle with yourself. Whatever the case may be, suicide isn't as foreign of a thing as it should be. 

To be in such a dark place is hard for anyone, and to be perfectly honest, having been there myself, at times it surprises me suicide isn't more rampant than it is. People talk a lot. Many say suicide is selfish. Many say suicide is a cop-out. I say it's not our place to judge, and for that we should be very grateful. 

Until you have been engulfed in depression, completely and entirely suffocating from it, it's hard to understand. But what I can tell you is that it's real. What I can tell you is that it's hard. And what I can also tell you, is that there is hope.

A little while ago I wrote a blog post about depression, and I got super candid about mine. I'll try to make the same point again today that I did then. 

Depression is nothing to be ashamed of.
Depression is a disease, just as serious as any other more "visible" disease.
Depression, doesn't diminish you.
Depression doesn't make you less than.
Depression doesn't define you.

What depression does is teach you.

It teaches you to be kinder. It teaches you to be more loving. It teaches you to be more understanding. It teaches you to judge less quickly, to love more readily, and to accept more freely. To those who have pondered suicide or know someone who has, know that you are not alone. And please remember:

your life matters more than the sadness. 

Your depression is not as big as your future.

And your purpose is greater than your pain.

24 August 2015


Unless you have no form of social media, (or live under a rock) you've probably heard of Ashley Madison's recent hacking scandal. As happy as I am this website is down, and as happy as I am Ashley Madison is being sued for hundreds of millions of dollars, the number of divorces and crumblings of families and hearts that will result from this make me sick to my stomach. (Literally. I haven't been able to eat I'm so nauseous.) This world is so hard to live in sometimes. Pornography and adultery are truly the vice of this generation. This hits so close to home for me, and for the countless friends I have made who have gotten divorced because of things like this. 

Today I am so grateful for the gospel in these latter days, and I am so unbelievably grateful to know that I have a Savior who will return and I will be with Him once again.

18 August 2015

Life Lately... According To My iPhone

Saturdays be like...

Kayaking is my new favorite date.


I truly, truly love them.

My little toaster.

The Sunday my dad became bishop :)

The house of the Lord.
(Nothing beats it.)

My blue-eyed babe.

Girls day.

36 days left of summer people!